Thank you alcohol!

If you knew me 6 years ago, I was a person focus on my career, learning and becoming a better developer, and I still does, but with a little difference, I lied myself that I could start drinking and control it.

Let me tell you something about me, I like control and I have a lot of things in my life under control and the ones I can’t control, I don’t stress about, I don’t care! and that’s it… I love control.

But there’s something about alcohol that allures me, and is not the taste, it was that after a few drinks I could allow myself to lose control and don’t care about it.

And what losing control means?

For me means getting completely emotional and irrational, and there’s nothing wrong about feeling your emotions, emotions are there for a reason, but still emotions need to be rationalized and not every emotion needs a reaction, I like to feel my emotions but I don’t always act based on what I fee, this is called emotional intelligence.

The problem by acting on every emotion under the alcohol effect, is that you don’t feel your emotions in the right way, your mindset is wrong, you can’t even speak clearly, what makes me thing that I can act in the right on my emotions? I don’t know why I never thought about this before, your perception is blurred.

So this was me on alcohol, a bomb of emotions and feelings, sometimes I used to cry, sometimes to be very funny and active, and some experiences were really good, I can’t deny I had good times, but I also took the worst decisions when I was drunk and I lose a lot.

I lost friends, relationships, people I still love, respect from others including family and even coworkers!

So, thank you alcohol for all the good times, but I can’t afford to lose what I love. I already allow myself to lose enough.

FEAR.

When I was 19 a friend told me I was a person full of fears, something I didn’t believe at the moment, but 7 years later I found out that he was right (Or maybe I just accepted), I was and still a person full or fears, but I don’t see that as a weakness anymore, I see them as an opportunity, I’m still afraid of doing, saying and writing so many things that I just do them, because that’s the whole point of fears, to do them, to see them as opportunities.

FEAR.

…Wisdom comes from experience

I was reading some old notes on my phone, when I found this one from 3 years ago:

You are a fool for worshipping knowledge.
For wisdom is what you need, and wisdom comes from experience

And made me reflect a lot about what I really want in my life, I still want to learn as much as I can, but I need to also focus on getting more experiences, getting out of my comfort zone every day, do the things that I’m still afraid to do, that’s how I really want to live my life.

Don’t be a fool.

Volcán Concepción

Last week I spent a few days in Ometepe Island, which is an Island in the middle of Lake Nicaragua and can be seem from many parts of the country, I remember seeing the big volcanos that are in the island from the road, wondering what was there, if someone lived there, well, I finally took the time to made the trip with my parents, and we all fell in love with the place and its people.

I didn’t take a lot of photos, but I took these of the Concepción volcano, enjoy them!

Help the starving children of Venezuela

We all have heard of venezuela, we watch videos on YouTube, read about it in the newspapers, and most of us can agree that things are bad there, but, what can I do? is there anything I can do to help? and I’m not talking about sharing your political perspective on social media, or debating about which system is best, or who’s fault, I’m talking about real help, the help the people of Venezuela needs.

Alimenta la Solidaridad Petare

I found this GoFundMe that feeds children and their mom, based on their campaign:

We currently serve 2,185 children and 100 moms in their breastfeeding period, and we have 30 diners around the Municipality Sucre in Caracas, Venezuela. 

If you have 1 or 2 extra dollars please go to: https://www.gofundme.com/alimentalasolidaridadpetare and donate now!